Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Burning The Midnight Blood....With Inspiration...
Ok, I have to come up with a really good Analogy for this one. And so You can relate, I am using Bill gates to start. Ahhhh Now here is a man that created "windows" and we all think of him as this Giant Guru of a person, Hated by some, revered by others, Rich beyond imagination...The thing is, when we think of him we see dollar signs, or headlines, or some other outrageous gossip, But here is the thing, (and I bet He never considers this anymore, But I could be wrong) I now see what he has done, Some are so caught up with the "dollar and cents" they dont see how just one man has opened the door for so many.Oh, not for "making a program" like windows, But look at the best and Better things. We can chat with our friends around the world, We can create some amazing digital art and share it at once with a friend 800 miles away. We can see our Sons and Daughters in Afghanistan, and know they are safe. We can write books, or write blogs, We can meet new people, Or connect with Lost friends. I am so Inspired by this, The point is, We all feel so Unimportant sometimes, But every last one of us has something to give, even if we inspire ONE person out there, It is so worth every last second! You may change a persons life with one word, or one picture, or one thought, That you may have not shared, because you/we thought it really meant nothing. I'm sure Bill Gates Never imagined in his wildest dreams, That he could change so many lives, or inspire so many people, Or connect the world in such a way. He just had a spark of "What If" and it changed our world. Even if you think its meaningless, if something inspires you, if you have the "What If" moment, Please share it. It WILL mean SOMETHING to SOMEONE, Believe it!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Shade Or Shadow.....?
When Light hits objects on a sunny day, the darkness beneath or beside the objects is called shade, and I have seen many people take refuge in the shade, whether to cool off , or avoid the intensity of the light in some way. But in the darkest hours of the night, The same anomaly is called a shadow, and the same people that sought out the shade, avoid the shadow...
Now the same mind that told you the shade was "safe" tells you the shadow is "dangerous", yet it is the same darkness that the light painted at a different time of day. So the brain warps sometime between dawn and dusk, Now isn't that something to think about!
I spent my Vampire moments Drinking in some of the shows I had DVR'ed, there was House, and Brothers and Sisters, and a Scrap book show. I wanted to watch more of the OC, but after 12 hours straight, I needed a break. 12 hours...and I didn't even make it through the 4th disc, and there are 28 of them...I'll be busy for a while, But it is a GREAT show.
My Son is going on another mission in the desert, I worry about him a lot, but he is in no worse danger than my children that are home, bad things can happen to anyone at anytime, you don't need to be at war to get caught in the middle of something dangerous. In fact he is on alert, he is sort of ready, always prepared (for the most part), But the ones tucked in safely at home....They don't expect anything to go wrong, there is a false sense of security for those of us safe at home. I get creeped out watching those serial killer movies, I know they are out there, and most are invisible, Kind of like a Vampire, They look like any other human, until they find their victims.
Have you ever used the light to paint? Can you see What I see Between the light and the dark? The shades of grey .........
Now the same mind that told you the shade was "safe" tells you the shadow is "dangerous", yet it is the same darkness that the light painted at a different time of day. So the brain warps sometime between dawn and dusk, Now isn't that something to think about!
I spent my Vampire moments Drinking in some of the shows I had DVR'ed, there was House, and Brothers and Sisters, and a Scrap book show. I wanted to watch more of the OC, but after 12 hours straight, I needed a break. 12 hours...and I didn't even make it through the 4th disc, and there are 28 of them...I'll be busy for a while, But it is a GREAT show.
My Son is going on another mission in the desert, I worry about him a lot, but he is in no worse danger than my children that are home, bad things can happen to anyone at anytime, you don't need to be at war to get caught in the middle of something dangerous. In fact he is on alert, he is sort of ready, always prepared (for the most part), But the ones tucked in safely at home....They don't expect anything to go wrong, there is a false sense of security for those of us safe at home. I get creeped out watching those serial killer movies, I know they are out there, and most are invisible, Kind of like a Vampire, They look like any other human, until they find their victims.
Have you ever used the light to paint? Can you see What I see Between the light and the dark? The shades of grey .........
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Thirst...
My "Blood" last night was "The OC'. My son is on tour in Afghanistan, He bought me the whole series of The OC, which by the way I have never even saw one episode. I was hooked from the very begining and 'alas' did not want to stop watching.
Seeing a show like this brings home the fact that most if not all families are dysfunctional, in some way or another we never think of ourselves as 'normal'. We all WANT to be normal, but I dont know if that even exists in the human world.
I used to think to myself as a child "I want to be in that family" but you dont always see the crap they keep in the closet, and some of that crap can be quite scary. If nothing else I have learned that to be dysfunctional IS normal, if anything could be called normal. And if your not than you are one of the people that are "ABNORMAL" in this human stain.
I find my Blood every night, It can be music, or poetry. A good book, or a newly discovered craft, but it always happens, I can attempt to go to sleep, But I just lie there, hopelessly staring at the ceiling or I catch myself squeezing my eyes shut, trying to force my fat sheep over a fence made for giant horses, they just never make it and stare at me with angst, but hey, I want to be 'normal' . Whats the saying.... early to bed early to rise.... Well that must explain why I'm not healthy,wealthy, or wise!!
Seeing a show like this brings home the fact that most if not all families are dysfunctional, in some way or another we never think of ourselves as 'normal'. We all WANT to be normal, but I dont know if that even exists in the human world.
I used to think to myself as a child "I want to be in that family" but you dont always see the crap they keep in the closet, and some of that crap can be quite scary. If nothing else I have learned that to be dysfunctional IS normal, if anything could be called normal. And if your not than you are one of the people that are "ABNORMAL" in this human stain.
I find my Blood every night, It can be music, or poetry. A good book, or a newly discovered craft, but it always happens, I can attempt to go to sleep, But I just lie there, hopelessly staring at the ceiling or I catch myself squeezing my eyes shut, trying to force my fat sheep over a fence made for giant horses, they just never make it and stare at me with angst, but hey, I want to be 'normal' . Whats the saying.... early to bed early to rise.... Well that must explain why I'm not healthy,wealthy, or wise!!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Dreaded Insomnia? Or Just a Vampire...
I have never done anything like this before, But what the hell, I am a Vampire, Not the storybook kind, but all the same, I am up way to late most nights and am considered strange by some of the "normal" people I know. No one will probably read this, but I love the "idea" of writing even if it is never read. I have a few novels inside just waiting to be written but I am my own worst critic, therefore after the first 3 pages I give up and set them aside. So I have decided that this may be the best way to write for now.
Most people would see "Vampire" in the Blog Title and would think of Count Dracula, or the Twilight series, or the Immortal Souls that roam the earth... I'm not any of those, but I sure can relate to the unusual hours that they all keep. I am a night soul, I don't know when or how it started, but here I am writing in the middle of the night, while the majority of the world sleeps.
I have, as far back as I can recall, Always been facinated with the dark. What moves when the rest of the world is still? What creatures come out when no one is looking? Is it because its Dangerous? Or Mysterious? When I was Young, I would walk back roads in mid-summer, at 3 in the morning. My mother worked the midnight shift so she never knew, I'm sure she would have blown a gasket if she had. I had pondered at some point, if it were possible that I was part Vampire, but of course I don't believe that now, although I often refer to myself as a Vampire, I don't drink blood, or sleep in a coffin, I don't melt in the daylight, and I LOVE garlic, So I would guess I don't Qualify as a true Vampire. To kill "This" vampire, all I need is Ambien. Amazing stuff- Works almost every time. But I now know it's not insomnia that keeps me up, Its the fact that I have the world sort of all to myself without interruptions, even for just a little while. and that can be quite nice!
Most people would see "Vampire" in the Blog Title and would think of Count Dracula, or the Twilight series, or the Immortal Souls that roam the earth... I'm not any of those, but I sure can relate to the unusual hours that they all keep. I am a night soul, I don't know when or how it started, but here I am writing in the middle of the night, while the majority of the world sleeps.
I have, as far back as I can recall, Always been facinated with the dark. What moves when the rest of the world is still? What creatures come out when no one is looking? Is it because its Dangerous? Or Mysterious? When I was Young, I would walk back roads in mid-summer, at 3 in the morning. My mother worked the midnight shift so she never knew, I'm sure she would have blown a gasket if she had. I had pondered at some point, if it were possible that I was part Vampire, but of course I don't believe that now, although I often refer to myself as a Vampire, I don't drink blood, or sleep in a coffin, I don't melt in the daylight, and I LOVE garlic, So I would guess I don't Qualify as a true Vampire. To kill "This" vampire, all I need is Ambien. Amazing stuff- Works almost every time. But I now know it's not insomnia that keeps me up, Its the fact that I have the world sort of all to myself without interruptions, even for just a little while. and that can be quite nice!
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