Immortal...no time for sleep

Have you ever felt like maybe its not insomnia, but maybe you just dont want to waste the time you have left? I have not posted in a very long time, in truth I didnt think anyone would read anything i would write anyway, but even that doesnt matter, Life is so short, and I often wonder how many days/nights I have left. There are so many things I still want to do, and yet I can feel my back slowly tuning to ooze, I eat tylenol sometimes like candy, and having a bad stomach, I cant have anything else anyway, not that I even want to go there.....who does? I keep saying I want to be normal, but normal? really? there is no such thing, and if there were, It would be too boring for me anyway....I am so quirky in my opinion, that a Normal perspective would be horrible. I used to look for that "thing" that I thought was out there that would "make" me happy, but alas...NO THING will do that, no pill, no gas, no person, or place. its a thing inside of us,you do have to find it, but its called contentment, its called everythings gonna be allright, even through the pain, and the sick, and the sad, and finally in our own demise, its ok. I think I have found what I have looked for all my life. I am happy. even if its my last day, which i hope its not, but its all gonna be ok. Vampire- Out! see you tonight if your following me! PS dont worry about the shadows, all they are is a lack of light!